also, just because you learn something doesn't mean that it comes easy... or even easier really. It just points it out that you have the problem and then you realize even more that you can't do anything without God.... which makes you a little discouraged but more confident in your omnipotent God. This summer has drawn me so close to God, just because I have to depend on Him. I have to. I have nothing else perfect to hope in... I have nothing else perfect to depend on BUT Him.