okay, for real... I like... want to write all that has been going on... but I can't.. it's 2:00! I thought that I would change my sleeping in schedule in college (cause yes, in high school it was similar). I was dumb to think that I would change my sleeping schedule!

I listened, I went to Regent, I am here. I have been blessed with fantastic, hilarious friends, I have been blessed with wise bible studies and worship, I have been blessed with phenomenal teachers, I have been blessed with encouragement every time I miss my sweet friends and family.

I haven't figured out how to completely budget my time... but since when have I ever been good at that?! I am, however, becoming very good at budgeting my money... and I am sorta proud (: [although I am buying new TOMS. hollerrrr]

I have ran and walked a lot, and we eat healthy here. I am cooking for other people and it makes me feel like a mom.

No one has seen my outfits... so it's like I get to show new ones everyday... yay. Everyone here dresses so cute and artsy... I am sort of jealous but also sorta feel like I fit in. I also have become a neat freak... my bed is even made every morning... I know... weird.

People at college aren't some different, old, grown up group who knows what they are doing. They are kids... like me... even the old ones. People don't just fall in love here... they still have crushes first. so weird.

I will be 19 years old. NINETEEN in 10 days. 10. That's crazy. Hey, New Life... isn't that crazy?!

I still have school to do... ha. man. Some things will never change. [run and tell that, run and tell that, home boy, home boy, home, home, home boyyyy]

[[I do miss my NLC family, the coclan, the KrispeyKremeKrew, the nine, my youth group, APT., my geeze, the wilcaroes, storm, safteyman, and my sweet, sweet family... a little. eh, I just love them]]

⁷ "Two things I ask of you, O LORD;
do not refuse me before I die:

⁸ Keep falsehood and lies far from me;
give me neither poverty nor riches,
but give me only my daily bread.

⁹ Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you
and say, 'Who is the LORD ?'
Or I may become poor and steal,
and so dishonor the name of my God.

--Proverbs 30:7-9

Be content and seek God's kingdom first.

"Therefore you have no excuse, O man, every one of you who judges. For in passing judgment on another you condemn yourself, because you, the judge, practice the very same things. 2 We know that the judgment of God rightly falls on those who practice such things. 3 Do you suppose, O man—you who judge those who practice such things and yet do them yourself—that you will escape the judgment of God? 4 Or do you presume on the riches of his kindness and forbearance and patience, not knowing that God's kindness is meant to lead you to repentance? 5 But because of your hard and impenitent heart you are storing up wrath for yourself on the day of wrath when God's righteous judgment will be revealed." -Romans 2:1-5

I realized something... I was being stupid. I haven't done this the whole time... only once. However, that one moment that I took the action of sitting in my room instead of joining a group just because I felt like they were already a group... or because I'm "not like them"... was stupid. I went to the boardwalk last night... not with my usual people and not with my best friends back home... I went with another group just cause... and it was fun (: I found out that they are tons like me and a lot like my wonderful best friends back home! Silly me, this is college. Grow up.

also, apparently I'm fast... Pops says so. Awesome.

Today I was utterly depressed I sprinted 4 miles... I finished in 23 mn. and 46 sec.

I don't run for fun. I don't run because I have to usually. Today I ran the fastest I have ever run, and I didn't stop. Today was actually the hardest day. Here I am all smiley in the morning... man. Pictures can sometimes be so deceiving... I am okay... and I actually spent some significant time with my Father today. Of course Evie would call and tell me it's okay to come home now. Of course "the call" would start playing on my ipod. Of course Josh would say he misses me and it's been boring without me. Of course everyone would be off doing their own thing tonight.

I can't do this anymore... but then again, I never could. God always could. He still can. He still will.


Thank Goodness, cause I'm a wreck.

why yes I am taking a picture everyday of college :) most people who know me would agree that I am good at keeping photo taking commitments.


also. I am drowning in a sea of college homework. That is hard. boooo.

It's official. I am a college student. I started out feeling like I just started our little geography class with Court and Becs... and sometimes I still feel like that. I walked in my dorm for the first time and felt like I was 14 and it wasn't time for me to be here yet! I still feel like I am itsy but... everyday I sorta feel more and more grown up! of course my walls are covered with pictures, but those memories seem more and more like dreams. Of course I can't wait to have more and more as we grow up with my wonderful best friends back home... but I like this new... I like the people here! God called me to a tremendous college! People here, men and women alike, are so passionate. Atleast 98.9% of the population here at Regent University is positive God is doing big things in their lives... everyone here just FEELS it (I shouldn't use everyone... Aaron wouldn't like that. It's innaccurate. 98.9%!) We are leaders here at this school, and we know it. We know God is going to use us in mighty ways to change this deprived world. God gave us talents, He gave us knowledge, He is giving us educations... WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO WITH THAT?! This whole school is about being lights in dark places and anyone who knows me well knows that's what I'm all about, baby!!! God called me here and I don't know why yet... but I'm sure excited and eager to find out!

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Hebrews 13:13-14

¹³Let us, then, go to him outside the camp, bearing the disgrace he bore. ¹⁴For here we do not have an enduring city, but we are looking for the city that is to come.

Psalm 21:5-7

⁵ Through the victories you gave, his glory is great;
you have bestowed on him splendor and majesty.

⁶ Surely you have granted him eternal blessings
and made him glad with the joy of your presence.

⁷ For the king trusts in the LORD;
through the unfailing love of the Most High
he will not be shaken.