three of my very best friends.

I will miss them.

But they will be with me forever, I have no doubt.

I went back and I read the blogs of a year ago..

listen. my life is so different. My friends are still here.. but I am CLOSER to some of them and have been yanked away from some of them. I have conquered (through Christ ONLY) spiritual battles that seemed last year like they would last a life time. I have had so many more injuries this year. I have accomplished so many more things. My life has been less consumed of Junior schoolwork and more consumed of Upward and Storm. I look at my text messages and that seems less significant, but they are different than last year.. to different people... with the exception of Courtney and Rebecca.. I have always texted them :)

It's just weird. How significant time IS. When you look back.. you cannot be ignorant... you either wasted your time or you didn't. Either wasted your year or you didn't. Either wasted your month or you didn't. Either wasted your week, day, hour, minute, precious seconds... or you didn't.

I still hate spanish.

I mean.. what is this really.. when did I get old enough to GRADUATE?! Oh dear Lord, I can't do this on my own.

sometimes I have random feelings of missing basketball practice and games. I wake up expecting to go to practice or have to prepare for a game.. and that is sort of sad to me. I sometimes wish I was 11.. just starting Upward.. just meeting camp people.. just meeting the people who are my best friends today.

If I relived all of my middle school and high school years, it would bring back a lot of heartache, trials, and spiritual battles. But, sometimes you learn so much from those it's worth reliving.. sometimes you just have to thank God for all of those times things DIDN'T go your way, because of what came from it (not only biblically are you supposed to.. you just WANT to).

God used something in my life last night to help other people realize things about their own life.. and that's what I want to do for the rest of my life.. it was incredible!

Thank you God for that amazing lesson.. that amazing trial that took me four years to overcome.. that spiritual battle that left me tattered and torn and realizing that I can do NOTHING without you.

I have three weeks of class left.. THREE. Then.. I am off to summer, off to camp, off to fun, off to the pool, off to friends, off to college. (I make that college decision May 1st, by the way)

I encourage you to fight in prayer for you friends today, everyone needs prayer, whether they "look" like it or not.

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when you ask for challenges, God does not disappoint.

sometimes I write checklists on the blog cause it helps me focus::

devotion (X)

send rachel pictures (X)

burn a cd for nathaniel

laundry

clean room (X)

sweep

declutter

prepare friday "gifts"

write senior salute

plan meals

store

dinner by 4:30

upward & open gym

call regent (X)

write essay (X)

tassel call (X)

okay. now I can see it all. GO.

sometimes I look in the mirror and think that I am doing all of this alone. Ridiculous.

And if Our God is for us,

then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us,

then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us,

then who can ever stop us
And if our God is with us,

then what can stand against?

Then what can stand against?
Then what can stand against?

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God…

Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is Healer, awesome and power
Our God, Our God…

this was a good week and a great weekend! accomplished a lot.. in accomplishing a lot, i also messed up my room! BUT the oven WAS fixed and I love cooking.

I like cooking, sweeping, laundry, disinfecting... David would call me a good woman (:

-more cooking

-making the most of my last upward weekend (ever)

-taking as many pictures as I can

-turning in the cd of pictures

-sending out the pkgs. (I have to do that.)

this spring break was fantastic...

(s.b. list)

-I really want to go to the beach.. maybe I'll ask around for anyone who wants to take a day trip.. say wednesday/thursday? (X)

-I need to remind my teams that there is no practice (X)

-spend some quality time with Evie and Sarah (X)

-clean. (X)

-make a cd of pictures for nathaniel

-send stuff.

only two things I didn't accomplish and those will be done this week... Spring break has made me anxious for summer but.. it has also made me realize that I can't just RUSH things.. I don't want to.. I only have a little more of high school left.. only two more months.

Some goals for the rest of the school year:

-wash a load daily

-sweep daily

-read for one hour outside daily

-little bit of school a day (no procrastination.. even though thats easy senior year.)

-spend one hour with Evelyn-Grace and Sarah AT LEAST daily

-finish Upward strong... I am going to miss those kids

-plan graduation tables, sr. pics, Storm senior speech, pics for Nathaniel

-Daily devotions

-send packages THIS WEEK

-meet with Cat and hear all about Cambodia

-make dinner daily for the family (have to fix oven this week!)

Happy Easter!

I was going to do two seperate posts... but I will just pretend that they are seperate.. I love Easter.. it's almost ALWAYS a beautiful day signifying a beautiful thing. Just really contemplate the fact that God sent His SON to die for YOU and YOUR sins that YOU daily choose to be a part of and then rose His son from the dead three days later... God is so omnipotent and such a fantastic author.

Easter is such a good day to be with family and friends, joining together in thankfulness and rejoicing that our God is risen.

oh my babies.

becs, court, nuke, john, caleb, bec, eric, josh, dan, sarah, evie, mom, dad

aaron, shelley & david, coaches, andrew, kkk, hannah grace, jess, cat

whit, david choquette, steph, anna l., gordon, trisha

these people and more... they are responsible for making me who I am today.. now to break it into 15 pictures for graduation slideshow.

two more monthss.

this spring break is fantastic.. but so is the weather.

When the weather is like this.. it makes everyday happier no matter what you do, really. Yesterday, I had a picnic with Ev & Sarah on the deck.. right before taking Sarah to go see, "The Last Song." Here is what I tell people about that movie... definitely a Nicholas Sparks movie... acting was pretty good... Miley actually did a good job! and..I think she is a pretty good actress.. I like her :p (and her hair is the most magnificent hair ever.)

Today, I am going swimsuit shopping.. which is one of my favorite things all year.. thats up with dress shopping and camp shopping :) I'm pretty excited what this fantastic April Fools has planned for the Munroes today.

This weekend, Court, H and I are headed to the beach with my family to camp on Emerald Isle which should be buckets of fun and then Becs is coming up to meet us Saturday.. so.. tan spring break.. here we COME! (sunburn probably cause Rebecca wont be there at the beginning telling me to put on sunscreen :D)

People are complaining cause it's already the end of spring break... listen people... it really is almost summer.. just two more months. two. more.